Waiting

If anyone knows me, they should probably know that I am the most impatient person in the world.  Patience is a virtue that I do not hold, nor do I ever have hope of acquiring. 

Heck, I'm so impatient that when Joe and I were dating I had told him that he had to propose to me by a certain date.  When I want something, I do not want to wait.  But we all know that that is not the way that life rolls.  There are so many times when we have to wait for what we want.  We are told that it builds character.  Well screw character.  I don't want to wait.

You might wonder what I am waiting for....well, a lot.  For starters, Joe and I are buying a house!!!  Yay!  I guess I should clarify we are buying a townhome.  But it is still better than living in an apartment.  We are moving to Daybreak and I can't be more excited.  From the first time that I visited the Daybreak community I fell in love.  I knew that if Utah was going to be our home that is where I wanted to live.  It is being built right now and was supposed to be ready Aug 1.  Since the house isn't even framed yet there is no way that it will be ready in Aug.  We are really hoping it will be ready before Sept 21 when our lease runs out.  I want to be out of our apartment NOW, I want to have a place that I can truly make our home and feel settled. 

That isn't even the thing I'm anticipating the most.  The thing that has me in a tizzy is Joe's job.  In order to really explain this I feel I need to give some background.  We have always thought that Joe would go to grad school.  In order for him to do that there are things that he needs to do to get into grad school.  In order for that to happen I needed to find a job that paid a lot more and I would work 40 hours a week to be the main provider for the family.  Back in Feb I started looking for jobs.  Since then I have had 2 job interviews.  Yes, only 2 and both times I felt awful and that neither was the job for me.  A little over a month ago this got us thinking and wondering if perhaps this was not the avenue for our family.  Maybe I needed to stay home and we put off grad school.  Once we made that decision we both felt so good.  We know that at this time I need to be spending more time at home with the kids and with Joe.

In order for this to happen Joe needs to get paid a little more in his job.  He had a couple of job leads within his company.  One is a senior analyst and another is a manager.  He has already been offered the analyst position and with that one I can go part time.  However, if he gets the manager position there is a posibility of me being able to quit my job all together (can I get a What, What!!)  Joe has been through 4 interviews for the manager position.  On Friday June 28 they told him that they would tell him if he got the job or not the next week.  Well on Tuesday July 2 the head recruiter told him that she was going out of town and would be back on Monday and he would not get an answer until Monday July 8.  Yesterday, (Monday the 8th)  Joe talked to the recruiter and she told him he would find out either by that night or at latest today.  Well, it is almost 5pm and we still haven't heard anything.  WHAT THE HECK!!!!  If he isn't going to get the job, just let us know.  I am sick of being strung along right now.  If he is getting the job, I don't understand why they can't tell him.  I'm so sick of waiting, I just want to know.  I want to be able to move on.  For someone who has VERY little patience this is driving me CRAZY. 

Quite franckly I think Joe is sick of hearing me talk/nag him about when we are going to find out.  I don't know how to just let things go and not get uptight about it.  So I am stuck, and I am driving my husband crazy in the process.  One day we will have an answer, hopefully tomorrow, but I shouldn't count on it.  Until then, I will just keep waiting............