I completely forgot

Yesterday when I was so upset I didn't even write what I had intended to write.  Yesterday was my brothers birthday, this is the brother that Owen is named after.  Owen Christoper named after my brother Christopher Lee.  I love Christopher so much.  I am so grateful for my brother.  It is because of him that I have such a strong belief, testimony and knowledge of the plan of salvation.  I have never met Christoper but I look forward to the day when I will see him. 

Christopher was born about 3 months early and died 3 days after he was born.  He would have been 34 years old yesterday.  Ever since I was little I have just loved my brother.  I have always felt a special connection to him.  I know it's weird since he died before I was born, but it is true.  I think of him like my guardian angel. 

My parents only had one picture of him and I loved just looking at it.  When I looked at it my heart would hurt thinking of how sad it must have been for my parents to lose a child.  I would hurt thinking of a baby dying and what he must have felt.  I would hurt thinking of the life that he could have had.  I imagined that he would have been tall like my brother Drew but skinny like my brother Ben (Drew, you aren't fat, Benj is just super skinny).  But then I always felt happy and comforted thinking that God must have needed him in heaven and that he was a special angel.  Every now and then I would go find the picture and just stare at it thinking of those things.  I am ashamed to admit that sometime between middle school and high school I think I lost the photo.  We can't find it now and I know that I was the one that would look at it most often.  I don't know what happened to the photo and losing it breaks my heart.  I'm sorry mom and dad for losing that one physical image that we had of Christopher. 

So since I don't have a picture of Christopher I am going to post some pictures of Owen.  These pictures were taken right before Owen turned 1.  They are my favorite pictures of him.  I want Owen to be proud of who he is named after.  He is named after a very important person in my life.