Today

For some reason I feel off today.  I feel sad.  I think it is because it was a beautiful day and I didn't take Owen out.  I feel guilty.  It is not for lack of trying.  Owen wasn't listening to me and I was hoping by threatening to not play outside that he would do what I was asking him to do.  However, he did not listen so I couldn't back down on my word and we did not get to play at the playground.  I will make sure that we get to play outside tomorrow.   

I also think I am sad because yesterday I had work off and today I had to work.  Don't get me wrong, I love my job.  Ok maybe I don't always love my job but I really love all of the people that I work with and they make coming to work a fun thing for me.  Sometimes I even have the working-mommy-guilt thing where I am happy to go to work and get away from the kids.  But not today.  Today I wish that I could be eating dinner with my family and kiss my kids goodnight and actually get to see Joe for longer than 15-30 minutes in a day. 

I guess since we are already on this sad note, I will say that I wish I could be a stay home mom but work part time because I chose to work.  I think I will always enjoy working and getting out of the house but I wish that I could work less hours.  Oh well, this is the stage of life that I am in right now.  When Joe and I got married we knew that he would be in school for a long time and felt that I could help to support our family by working full time.  Yes, perhaps it was crazy having 2 kids so close together but I knew I didn't want to wait for when Joe was done with school.  I will also say I will not change anything.  I love my kids and CANNOT imagine not having them in my life right now.  Life is hard.  We all have our little (sometimes big) bag of challenges.  I don't want the trials that other people go through and they don't want the trials that I go through.  Honestly, I just wish we were done with the Joe in school phase.  I wish he was in his career.

On a happy note I got some nice snuggle time with Owen today.  He really doesn't like to snuggle and I got some with him in the morning.  I found a baby teething biscuit recipe online so while Kenzie was sleeping Owen and I were able to make those.  It was so fun having him as my little helper.  Kenzie is really struggling with eating solids, so it was a little early with these biscuits but I froze them hoping I can use them when she is ready. 

Oh!  I was able to get some cute pictures on my phone of the kids.  Kenzie is sitting up a lot better these days. Sometimes she will do a nice little face-plant but not so today and I got these fun photos:

Kenzie's hair used to stand up naturally but it doesn't do that anymore.  It is standing up because yesterday her hair was in a cute little ponytail and this is her bedhead!  Gotta love it!